[21 May 2005|06:58am] 19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, 20Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, 21Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. 22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, 23Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.  24And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. 25If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. 26Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another."Galatians5:19-25     **Sometimes I feel like people think the only sins are the obvious ones like drinking, drugs, and sex. I don't know about you guys, but some of the things of the sinful nature list, I do everyday.... Thank God He is a forgiving God. I need to repent, I dont do that enough. These are good self-evaluating scripture, See which ones on the sinful nature you exert, and then see which ones of the fruits you exert. ( adultery ) ( fornication ) ( uncleaness ) ( lasciviousness ) ( idolatry ) ( witchcraft ) ( text ) ( variance ) ( emulations ) ( wrath ) ( strife ) ( seditions ) ( heresies ) ( envyings ) ( murders ) ( drunkenness ) ( revellings ) 14 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[16 May 2005|11:18pm] ( Mrs Caldwell's Class ) ( Me and My Buttface ) ( Me and Staci ) ARE YOU HAPPY I DID FREAKING LJ CUTS???????????????????????LOL 12 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[20 Apr 2005|05:50am] ok.. have more pictures.. but tired of posting... lol 25 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[27 Mar 2005|10:02am] Jesus... Thank you isnt a big enough word...... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't even comprehend it! You are Awesome, amazing, wonderful,etc... but I say those words to everyone I tell noone that they are Holy...... So you are HOLY LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Whatever that means.. its your word.... I use it for noone but you !!!!!!!! 4 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

Thoughts on B.J's crazy mind..... [22 Mar 2005|12:43pm] +++I feel like I know my Jesus so little. Ever since I got saved in the 7th grade its been about standing up and out for Christ. I havent focused on my own heart as much as I should. It's not about works and how often I am at church. It isn't about my worship in front/with others..its about my worship when no one is watching.It's about my heart. I want to be Spirit led, but then I try to do my own will... crazy girl. I was very upset about all of this Sunday night and Jaime helped me alot,she helped me realize that I am allowing myself to work according to the Spirit more than I think. Its true. She went through the fruits of the Spirit with me. I would never have some of those traits if it wasn't for God. It's not about what you do but your heart!!!!!!!!! I know I don't have one of those drastic testimonies where I was taking drugs and drinking and in jail and Jesus saved me from it all...... but Jesus has changed me and still is changing me like noone else can. He saved me from all that before I had the temptation and he had a purpose for it.If I stayed with the same attitude that I had when I was in the 7th grade I would be one of those people. But God saved me at young age for a purpose. I have made plenty and I mean plenty of mistakes. God's power is made perfect in my weakness:) My weaknesses aren't really with drinking and smoking.I mean yes, I drank a little before I got saved and I smoked cigerettes like a year ago, but my weaknesses have always been with relationships. I often get very embarassed about some of the mistakes I have made. I am a very forgetful person, so I forget some of the stupid things I have said and done, but when they come back to my memory, they come back like a ton of bricks. I wonder what some people see when they walk up to me. You know how you walk up and all you can remember is the past things they have said and done. If people do that with me I am embarassed. Especially with ex-boyfriends and friends. I want to say Im sorry to so many people for stupid things I have said and done around them. I thank God that the past isn't an issue with Him. Not even yesterday, or an hour ago. All that matters is my heart right now!!!! I love you Jesus!!!!!!! :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[21 Mar 2005|12:36pm] Thank you Jesus that you have filled my mouth with truth. I don't even have the ability to tell a good lie... yes I tell little white lies here and there, but to bold-face lie... I can't do it.... This morning I tried. It was so much easier to tell the truth. I felt such a relief. newayz...what was I thinking??.... I think I ruined my mommy's day.. that sux. crazy girl... I love you JESUS!!! Jaime Ammerman is so incredible, she helped me so much last night. It was just God that she walked in my room when she did. :) Good times with a very awesome boy last night:). 2 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

Revival is here!!!!!!! [12 Mar 2005|10:57am] Revival is here and I don't wanna be anywhere but where it is! Jesus is AMAZING!!!! He's changing hearts left and right!!!!! It's NOT OVER YET.... IT'S JUST BEGINNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YA WANNA COME ON THE REVIVAL TRAIN... THERE'S NO TURNING BACK~~~WHOOT WHOOT... LOL JEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I say I love you to alot of people. But I don't tell anyone they are HOLY. You are HOLY AND WORTHY OF EVERY ONCE OF MY BEING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING I AM, YOU GAVE ME. 4 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[08 Mar 2005|01:21am] YES YET ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL SISTER.... (THE ONE ON THE FAR LEFT!) 9 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

QUESTION?? [07 Mar 2005|02:25pm] GOTTA A QUESTION... It seems like God is moving in all the churches in our area, not just our church If anyone reads this outside this area.... IS GOD MOVING LIKE THIS EVERYWHERE? LIKE REVIVAL STYLE... PEOPLE GETTING SAVED ..LIKE PEOPLE YOU WOULD NEVER THINK WOULD.. JUST TURNING THEIR LIFE AROUND AND EVERYONE GETTING EXCITED ABOUT IT? If not I guess its what we have been praying for. A revival in the city of Birmingham. I LOVE IT 4 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

BLAH BLAH [07 Mar 2005|04:29am] LAST NIGHT @ CHURCH WAS INCREDIBLE. The most amazing thing ever. I have been wanting that to happen in our church for along time... and I wasn't even apart of it because I was being stupid. The whole place was rocking out for Jesus. There wasn't one person standing still. People were just truly worship and didnt care. I am stupid ..plain stupid. My mom came up to me and grabbed me and said its time that you be baptized with the Holy Spirit. It shocked me, because that is something that I just quit working for a couple of years ago. I REFUSED. She said are you ok. I said no I dont want to.. How do you refuse somethign God has promised you????STUPIDITY. I was afraid I would just seek speaking in tongues ya know... I didnt wanna try without understanding it. But I am never going to understand it till I have it.STUPID. Now I think the way I am probably going to recieve it is with my mom because that is where I am going to have to humble myself. I get so much pride against her. I HATE IT. I hate the devil. Stupid.I wanted to run away.. my mom left!!! ugh I havent talked to her.. I dunno if she is upset or not. It messed with me the rest of the night. People prayed for me... but I felt stupid I didnt wanna draw attention to me and have a stupid pity part. I have no reason not to praise God. Nothing terrible has been going on in my life. I have everything to be thankful for.....yet I make some kind of problem when theres not one.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH' Its ok God is good... Thank you Jesus for what you are doing in my church, family , friends, and me!!!!!! 8 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

Fun Weekend [06 Mar 2005|08:08am] Friday-- Girls Night/Dance ministry bonding time.... very fun... LOVE THOSE GIRLS Sat-- went to Civic Center w/ stepmom, Granny, sister-in-law, and niece.... fun stuff Hung out with the coolest girl in the world till time for the show @ the shma Shma was great. Saw and talked to alot of people. Favorite time: at the end of Mortal Treason.... God is amazing... Worship in sanctuary... INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE THOSE KIDS!!!! Today... going to church, ride a helicopter, and I dunno what else THE END.. LOVE YOU ALL 7 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[03 Mar 2005|07:21am] GOD IS AMAZING. PERIOD. THE END. FOREVER. 6 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh [01 Mar 2005|11:43pm] PROM DATE OFFICIALLY CANCELLED. SURPRISE,SURPRISE. ALREADY PLANNED ON IT HAPPENING. TICKETS DUE FRIDAY.... FUN FUN. TAKING APPLICATIONS FOR PROM DATE...... NAME,ADDRESS, SOCIAL SECURITY NUMBER, PIN NUMBER, CREDIT CARD NUMBER, BIRTH CERTIFICATE, AND PHOTO ID ARE REQUIRED..... LOL NAH I TALKED TO BETH TONIGHT... PROBABLY GOING TO GO WITH A GROUP OF GIRLS AGAIN. I LOVE THAT GIRL!!! SHES THE GREATEST. 19 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[26 Feb 2005|02:48am] I had so much fun tonight... Thanks for inviting me Sam and Ci!!!! We definently have to do that more often. B.J. = CRAZY SHYNESS AND QUIETNESS... UGH 8 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[24 Feb 2005|10:30pm] GUYS QUIT DROOLING... MY SISTER IS GORGEOUS..I KNOW I KNOW... 9 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[22 Feb 2005|10:37am] --What God is dealing with me about-- *It's not all about me... Ever since I got saved in the 7th grade it has been all about standing up for Jesus in my school and standing out for Jesus.But, its not to bring attention to ME. It's not for ME to be a better person. It's not to make me a better person. It's so God can ultimately be lifted up and glorified not matter what. Which is totally against human nature. Even if it means raising up a leader and sitting in the shadow while they save the masses. As long as my Jesus gets all the glory and all the praise. I really want others to have all Jesus has to offer. Its not being part of the few. It's about the few making it to where they are not few anymore!!! I really want to truly DESIRE this for others out of the pit of my heart. I WANT EVERYONE TO UNDERSTAND. Satan tries to turn and twist things. He wants us to think its about us. It's a daily struggle I have. I have to fight it daily. But its not about me. I want others to realize the power they can have through the HOLY SPIRIT. The same one that lives in me lived in Jesus, lives in my pastor, lives in my friends... and can live in anyone that recieves and can do anything through them. GOD made me. I have no special ability that I didnt get from Him. Noone is more qualified than anyone else because we all come from the same factory!!!!!!!!!!!! *Something else I think God has been dealing with me about is my mouth. When to speak and I guess when not to. There is power in your words. I have found that the biggest battle for me is in my mind. That's where Satan gets me. Gets my mind to start wondering. Gets me down about my insecurities and lack of outgoingness(lol) But God has given me the perfect verse for that. Proverbs 3:26---which to sum it up says the Lord is my confidence and will keep my foot from being snared.... AWESOME... HE is my confidence!!!!!!!! He is my strength. But about the power of your words thing.... I have found that Satan wants to shut us up. My mind will go crazy. I will think all these crazy things going down the road driving. That is the hardest time to pray. I dont want to open my mouth or do anything but think. But I cant dwell on it. I have found that when that happens.... to basically call Satan down on it..quote scripture something... pray right then... OUT LOUD... yes you will look like you are talking ot yourself driving down the road.. but OH WELL... That's what I personally have to do ... My mind belongs to Jesus... he has no authority over it. And I have also found not just that but in things .. like for instance in church.. when I pray or "sing" I do it really quietly I whisper when I "sing".. but I have found that that is also a place that Satan wants to shut me up.. so I try to pray out loud with authority and confidence and sing......I sound terrible.. yes .... but.... * THANK YOU GOD!!! YOU ARE MOVING IN MY FAMILY, FRIENDS,SCHOOL, AND CHURCH. AND ITS NOT OVER YET.... IT IS ONLY BEGINNING!!!!!!!!!!!!! 14 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

[20 Feb 2005|08:49pm] If any Pinson people happen to stubble upon my journal... COME TO BIBLE STUDY TOMMORROW NIGHT @ THE SPOT ON PINSON MAIN STREET. 7:00!!!!!!!!!!!! :*( ACCEPT JESUS

Back from the dead randomness... sorry the pics are so big.. I am LD [19 Feb 2005|05:54pm] ( Random pictures ) 11 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

dodododomdodododododom [31 Sep 2004|07:09pm] * LA TI DA........NEWAYZ..... My day wasn't bad. Nothing interesing... again. Did pick out our senior homecoming shirts.... they are sand-something green.. like a khaki green color.. I hope they look good.. I didnt really pick it. Mr Smith did. All the other shirts are gray. They all have the same design but the seniors will have seniors written on the front. And I am 90% sure our nickname shirts are pale pink with black writing. Deca shirts I am not sure on yet. but we get first dibbs on the senior spirit packs!!!!!yay!!!! n-e-wayz... * Only exciting thing... isnt that sad. Oh yeah.. now our plane tickets are officially ordered!!!!! We are going to leave October 16-come back October 21. I am excited .. never flown b4. We are leaving from B'ham, stopping in Chicago, going to Washington. THen coming home, stopping in Detriot, and then coming home!!! yay  yay yay....... going to see my future job... flight attendant!!!lol *Tonight I have to talk to my mom about our senior trip to California... yay... I hope she gives the ok..... yayyayaya....... newayz... i am done   GOD BLESS YOU ALL! 2 : ) BURNED WITHIN | :*( ACCEPT JESUS

unaware of my fears,unaware of my shame, all that matters here is... GLORIFYING YOUR NAME!!!! [26 Sep 2004|12:16am] *****Tonight at church was amazing:)...... For some reason all day I have been wanting to go to Cathedral(not to see the boy).... and I know why now... *****WORSHIP WAS AMAZING... JUST AMAZING.... and so was just everything..... ILOVE YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont want my hunger to leave when I walk into depression pit tommorrow(aka...school).... I dont want my thoughts and ideas to go away. I want to use the gifts I have. ITS NOT ABOUT ME. I HAVE NO WORTH OR VALUE ALONE. YOU GIVE ME MY WORTH. IN YOUR BLOOD I HAVE VALUE. I CANT SPEAK TO PEOPLE WITHOUT YOU... I AM TOO SHY ON MY OWN.. ANOINT MY LIPS LORD!!!!!! ******also ..good news for the dance team at church... we get to have our little thing and we get outfits:)yay.. lalalalalalala **~~**FORGIVE ME**~~** -for trying to take my future into my hands.. when you already know it anyway -for my selfishness -for my pride -for not being in your word -for talking when I need to listen -FRIENDS----forgive me for not being very loyal and losing contact..... -KYLE- for acting weird everytime I see you. I am paranoid about what you think.. I dont want you to think that I am trying to make you feel bad or jealous or something. -and anything else I may have done... - :*( ACCEPT JESUS

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